You Should Always Be Open To Learn

Dealing with the death of a child...well...it does teach you many things. I have always been open to learning new things...I don't think we ever reach a point where we are too smart. God wants us to keep learning and to keep learning is to appreciate where you are now compared to where you have been.

In reading all the griefbooks...they all agree that we should not make any major decisions till at least one year after the death. It is easy when someone you love and felt so close to dies to want to run away. People will sell their houses, quit their jobs, move to a different state but no matter what the grief will still be there and the hasty decisions may be a big regret. So, I don't push myself to do anything major in the decisions. I haven't changed her room. I go through her things every once in a while but her room is still her room. I wanted so bad to get out of this house, get out of this town but in the end that may not be what God wants me to do. Emotions though real can deceive you if you let them get the best of you. If I have to get out of town...I can...I can visit a friend...or go see my nieces and nephew and cousins in Orlando. I can go to Georgia and see my cousin (who if she is reading this...call me). When the kids and I went to Buffalo this summer we had a great time. It was so nice to be with my family and I dreaded going home. I thank my family for being there for me and for the amazing time we had in Buffalo. If you are grieving...as hard as it is...weigh all your decisions. Don't go by your emotions...remember this too shall pass and you will get through.

I went to the grave site. I don't do it a lot because it is hard and she isn't there, she is now in Heaven. I put flowers in the vase and clipped on a couple of butterflies. I hope she likes it. I miss you baby girl...we all do.

I am asking for extra prayers for Connor & Brooke. Thanks!!!

God bless you all!!